A Friend's Anguish

I’m so blessed to have you…

Not being there when I really need you the most.
You’re such insensitive jerks!
Haven’t you realize that something’s wrong with me?
You must really think that staying away from me,
and not giving me a damn would help me.

If you’re not that important to me, I’ve already condemned you.
But it has turned out that I’m the one that has been condemned.
Wow! That’s really something…

I thought you were the ones that could,
And yet you’re so fucking preoccupied with your shit!

I’m just waiting for you guys to notice,
But I guess you’re all too blind.
I’m just waiting for you guys to lend me a hand,
But I guess I’m not worthy of that after all.

Don’t expect me to come begging for help…
If you really know me, I’m not like that.

We’ll just wait what comes first,
You’re concern…
… Or my funeral.

- Rasui Akira

written on July 26, 2005 – 2:00 PM