Losing isn't always a bad thing…
I gazed at heaven’s eye,
While longing for a magical embrace.
And then, you held me.
With warmth so true,
it turned my cold heart
into a river,
that only knows
the depths of you.
I am yours.
You are mine.
We are one tonight.
- Rasui Akira
written on October 3, 2007 - 11:54 PM
Unnerving.
More than
the clock’s ticking,
on this silent night.
Its words…
…those cold words…
…your words
Like a recorded song,
being played
over and over.
Robbed my hope,
of ever hearing
your heart beat.
- Rasui Akira
written on March 10, 2007 - 1:29 AM
Lay me on a distant land,
where groves bear fruits of the sun,
and the heavens whisper words,
sweet as the morning’s dew.
Lay me while the waters scurry.
Let it tickle my weary hand
as I play with it,
like strings of a guitar.
Lay me as If I was a feather,
falling from an angel’s wing.
Slowly taking down,
Then resting on earth’s arms.
Let me lay on the paradise,
My illusions created.
For reality seems so foreign.
So please console me,
and lay me down.
- Rasui Akira
written on March 3, 2007 - 8:30 AM
I bask beneath the hidden night,
while fingers caress the land.
A marvelous symphony,
on strings of coconut palms.
Lights blend with the music,
and heaven’s brush creates
a myriad of images,
laid on the sea’s onyx canvas.
Shores gave their applause,
as the climax commences.
Awestruck, I remain,
soaking in all the spectacles.
This show is far from over.
The next act has only begun.
- Rasui Akira
written on January 28, 2007 – 8:06 PM
Don’t take me…
I hide
behind blinds,
that shut out
what’s coming.
It stings!
The light comes for me.
Helpless,
I’m taken closer…
and closer…
and closer.
Let go!
I did not want this!
I resent your paradise!
I loathe your gift of eternity!
Throw me back!
Don’t take me… Please…
- Rasui Akira
written on December 27, 2006 - 4:27 AM
What hands can’t touch,
Eyes can grasp.
Echoes from pools of amber hues,
Like voices beyond the tunnel,
Beckoning, seducing…
I’m your fool.
Soul begs to be your reflection…
…You allow it.
Heart surrenders for your bidding…
…You take it.
Mind halts…
…I,
…You,
…One!
Lips on leather soles,
Tastes like juice
from the apples of Eden.
Give me more!
I’m your fool,
A fool’s fool.
I’m… a… fool…
- Rasui Akira
written on December 22, 2006 - 9:09 PM
Ton of ideas
laid out on paper,
Drawing blood
in every stroke,
Relief in each unveiling.
Foreign eyes often ignore,
beauty between the lines.
Those who dare,
are honored by its presence.
If only it has reached the minds
of people whom they are meant for.
The shouts are silenced.
The lights are dimmed.
The ink won’t flow…
…It won’t flow.
- Rasui Akira
written on December 20, 2006 - 8:32 PM
The swaying of the pendulum,
The ticking of time,
The passing of day to night.
It’s done, I couldn’t go back.
All I could do
is let you hear this word.
Then maybe, just maybe,
It could erase that moment.
Turn it into a void,
That neither of us knew existed.
Burned into our dreams,
Etched into our lives.
It’s over, can’t be undone.
Nothing could ever change it.
Still… I’m sorry.
- Rasui Akira
written on December 20, 2006 – 4:31 PM
I want to kiss the moon this Christmas,
And let skies shed tears of snow.
I want chills to run through my body,
Like water through stream as they flow.
Remind me of sweetness.
Let me feel love just once.
I want to hug the stars,
So warmth will make me feel.
That someone…
…somewhere
…someday,
Will answer my prayers when I kneel.
Remind me that I dream,
Let me know that I’m heard.
I want to be a puzzle,
Only with that missing piece.
Maybe then I’ll be content,
My soul will be at ease.
Remind me that it’s possible,
Remind me that it can be real,
And the holidays will somehow make it happen.
- Rasui Akira
written on December 20, 2006 – 3:34 PM
The weight is on my shoulders.
It’s for me,
and me alone.
The smoke,
I inhale
and exhale.
The sweet poison,
I’m drowning in,
The strain,
the sweat,
the tears,
Is my undoing.
Get you’re hands away from me!
I don’t need your kindness.
Will it soothe me?
Will it end my thirst?
You only think that it will.
This is mine.
Mine!
Only mine.
- Rasui Akira
written on November 17, 2006 - 10:46 AM
I’m the lost boy,
Smelt of smoke and liquor,
And who stared into infinity.
The lights spun,
round and round.
The sounds
startled my quiet heart.
And the people
moved swiftly.
I wish my innocence never died
when I vomited.
It still comes.
Nausea, burning my insides.
Wash my stained clothes.
Give me a bath.
Please! Rid me of the chaos!
- Rasui Akira
written on November 13, 2006 – 3:05 PM
Lips move awkwardly.
Stares deceiving.
It escapes,
only to be unknown.
Do you offer me those kind words,
oh glorious oppressors?
Stop slashing me from behind,
Hit me between my eyes!
You’re silent, are you offended?
For you are only bold,
when hiding behind a curtain.
- Rasui Akira
written on November 9, 2006 – 4:35 PM
Hanging on twine,
like it’s built from steel,
Unmoved by the peril below.
Your face painted with a grin,
As eyes stared forward,
capturing the skies.
What makes you steady?
You thirst, but you don’t drink.
You need life, but you chose death.
The sun can’t shine eternally,
in a world with two sides.
Light submits to darkness,
at least once.
- Rasui Akira
written on November 9, 2006 – 4:21 PM
The heat is within me.
I’m flushed by the embers.
Numbing thoughts,
Slave to magic goblins.
Anxiety vanishes,
Lust in my veins.
Can’t I be happy
without poison?
Sultry incubi,
Share me your secret,
For enjoying the pain
of others and myself.
Nothing makes sense now,
except for this emerald wonder.
- Rasui Akira
written on November 3, 2006 – 7:31 PM
Calm me with the sweetness.
Your embrace
within a thousand tendrils,
Caressing each nerve.
Sweep me off my feet.
Take me to lands untouched,
As golden leaves slumber,
Under the sun’s shy gaze.
- Rasui Akira
written on November 10, 2006 - 1:36 PM
Let go!
My hands are not yours.
Each stroke, consuming.
I’m hypnotized by the fluorescence.
In a world with six walls,
No doors, no windows.
All I have
is a lonely escape key.
Time and space are lost,
In the vortex
of a recurring novel.
Why can’t I detach?
One push is freedom.
Yet I’m idle.
Oh sweet, blind hopes!
So I ask you again,
Let go!
My hands are not yours!
- Rasui Akira
written on November 1, 2006 – 10:28PM
Apertures on head are obscure.
Whirling shades only mystifies.
Relaying depth uncertain,
As blinds mislead the wise.
You merely relate with fiction,
Though gaze captures light.
The world owns your perception now,
For perversion compromises sight.
Unfortunate to have such gift,
When its purpose is disabled.
It’s gone beyond the eclipse,
In the midst of a lonely fable.
Would it bring much relief,
if you’re sightless as me?
Visions will only come true,
When eyes no longer see.
- Rasui Akira
written on September 4, 2006 - 2:56 AM
Above the roots,
Warmth gazes through.
From heaven’s rejoicing,
And sparrow’s flight.
Beyond the stalk,
Jade children rustle,
Whilst the humble breeze,
Cradle them to slumber.
Throughout the arms,
Blossoms fall ablaze,
Welcomed by the plains,
Where life sprung.
Above the roots,
There we bloom.
From heaps of tears,
and smiles,
and roars.
As the cycle gives
a chance anew.
- Rasui Akira
written on August 4, 2006 – 3:17 PM
It’s too late, you’re gone.
I had no choice.
Keeping you will be
our undoing.
Or am I just selfish?
My body remains awkward.
My soul still dazed.
Regrets can't thaw,
A victim of a frigid heart.
It’s unfair,
that I let you suffer
the cost of my imprudence.
Foolish for me to ask
for your forgiveness.
But I’m already a jester
in this cruel stage.
Now I have nothing,
Only love I never got.
- Rasui Akira
written on June 30, 2006 – 2:21 PM
Alas, the end has met
what’s been started.
Part of me is now lost.
Hiding in the dark recesses
that I call home.
I can’t speak through dead lips.
I can’t reach with withered arms.
Eyes still yearn for images of you.
Though you’ve been most obliged
to denounce my existence.
If only echoes moved you,
I may not have been
a prey of circumstance.
Anger can never succumb me,
For you’re just a faint memory,
Which even dreams can’t recall.
Now all I have is love
that I could never give.
- Rasui Akira
written on June 30, 2006 – 2:16 PM
