In attempts to start my kick-off post for this blog, I decided to write about the idea behind the blog’s name, how it came to be in the first place, and how it would hopefully become a medium for who knows of what purpose.
All I’m sure of is that I wanted to write again.
It’s been ages since I sat down, bowed my head, drowned my ears to the music of my headphones until my heart told my hand to write something, which eventually turned out to be pretty damn good, most of the time.
But for approximately two years, I went into a mandatory writing hiatus. One that is brought up by either my refusal to go back to my “old days”, where I wrote most of my poetry while I was depressed, confused or angry or either by the fact that the gift I have for the written word ( if I did have one ) has been lost for good.
I had the “groove”. I lost it. Now I want it back.
Fucked up or not, I know I can write something. It may be some random piece of sucky nonsense or something meaningful, influential and even life changing. I just missed the feeling you get when you touch someone else, though they're far away. The butterflies you have when a reader says that somehow they felt a connection between you and what you’ve wrote.
I have to do it. I will do it. I must. For myself for once.
Why did I call this blog “Modern Day Loser” in the first place?
Well the name was from my Plurk page ( which I know is gathering dust like most of my social networking accounts ), entitled “Re-evolution of the Modern Day Loser”. I gave it the title because at the time when I’ve felt that I’m a loser.
I always did things half –baked (and the fact that I recently wear a bag everyday that says “Never Do Things Have Baked” is both a smack on the forehead and a motivation for me). I stunk when it came to grasping relationships ( or keeping them for more than a month ). Though people close to me thinks that I’m accomplished and in general a great guy, I had the opposite idea about myself or somehow I felt that I’m not as complete as they think I am to be.
But beneath all the crap I felt, I was thankful that I am the way I am ( weird I know... ). Because without the struggles ( and perhaps the knee-high shit I was in ), I wouldn't have been the person I am today, somehow stronger, smarter and more equipped to handle the storms that life may throw in my direction.
On that note, this blogged is formed around the idea that losing ( in a general sense ) may be seen as a bad thing at first. But the rewards of being a loser, and at times when you least expect it, are greater than those of the winners have gained.
As much as possible, this blog would mostly showcase the up-side to the bad things ( OK, I’m not an expert on optimism but I’m working on it ). That...
Losing ain’t always a bad thing.
So hope that you would stick around for my next posts. Take care.
Sincerely yours,
Rasui Akira
Official Head MDL ( Modern Day Loser )
