Prisoner of Pain

I'm a prisoner of pain, struggling to be free.
To get away from all this agony.
I'm full of scars that cannot heal,
From all this suffering that I feel.

I'm a prisoner of pain, drowning in this heartache.
Not sure how much more of this I could take.
Lifelessly bleeding in this dark and lonely cell,
Longing to speak the words that I dare not tell.

I'm a prisoner of pain, crying in this sorrow.
All these pain left my heart all hollow.
There's no time that I don't feel melancholy.
What did I do to deserve such tragedy?

I'm a prisoner of pain, slowly passing away.
Dying so not to see another day.
This pain I feel has done its toll.
This pain has already reached its goal.
God, free my soul!

- Rasui Akira

Insomnia

You try to close your eyes, seeking refuge from the strain.
But still a force forbids you to have your retreat.
You’re helpless. You remain awake.

It’s exactly 4:41 am in this Tuesday morning. I have school in about 4 hours and yet I can’t sleep.

I spent hours staring at the dull ceiling of my bedroom, every minute driving me to complete restlessness. I grow weary and tired, struggling to attain the burden that has been set upon me this point in time. I’m troubled by my condition. Is there hope to cure me from my frailty?

Although this has drained some of my life force, I’m having numerous instances where I could contemplate on occasions which reside in my past, my present and my immediate future.

Maybe my incessant pondering has caused this ill faith. Perhaps. But I didn’t blame it.

I do seek for solitude now because this is tiring. Until I’ve attained much peace, I should stay here conscious, wondering through nowhere, lost in the depths of my illusions, and waiting for the sun.

- Rasui Akira